The Fear

Man, I havn't posted in a while but its because I have pictures of things i'd like to post, but always forget my camera at work! So in the meantime...
You know what Dusty said to me last night? He said "You know what is REALLY crazy....." I said "what." and he said "We're going to have a *whispers* BABY". Immediately I felt a knot in my throat which i tried to fight back but couldn't and he said "Are you about to cry???". Its the hormones I guess. Recently at church I remember we had a lesson on Missionary Work and bringing people to the Church. This topic intimidates me enough but something that stuck out to me was that the teacher pointed out that The most important of all people you will have to 'convert'.. is your children. I leaned over to the mom I was sitting by and whispered "that responsibility terrifies me." and she replied.. "Me too." What a SCARY thought to me. Being a convert myself, I am absolutely thrilled to bring my children up in the church, because i know it is right. No doubts about it. But what I am scared of, is my lack of knowledge. I don't know a lot of simple principles and forget what easy simple things mean sometimes. I only know a select few B.O.M stories. How am I supposed to teach my children to love the Scriptures when I am not scripturally smart? What if I'm not a good example? When we were sitting in the ultrasound room a few weeks back, and the technician said "Its a Boy" One of the first thoughts I had was "A Missionary." No Pressure or anything, right? :)