Dear Baby

Dear Baby in my Tummy,

I really really can't wait to meet you. Thinking about you actually being here on the outside puts a big knot in my throat. I often tell your daddy when we are laying in bed that I can't wait to hold you, and he always says 'you already are!', but i mean in my ARMS. I want to look at your face, and touch your hair and toes, and kiss your fingers. Ultrasounds show that you look alot like your daddy, which is fine with me. Maybe you'll have my smarts instead :).

My favorite part of being pregnant with you has been a feeling I can barely describe, and when I try.. it sounds odd. But sometimes when Im sitting down thinking about you in my tummy, this very physical happy feeling washes over my body for a minute and i just smile. I love that feeling. I love feeling your movements. They've changed so much from tiny little rumbles, to little flicks, to giant painful kicks i can watch contort my stomach into some odd shapes. Early in pregnancy, the movements were my most highly anticipated perk of pregnancy, and they sure didn't let me down. I Love them.

But my least favorite parts have been weight gain. More than weight gain, I have hated my strange attitude to the weight gain. Honestly, who cares that i've gained a bazillion pounds?

Your dad still runs to Kroger to get me bizarre things if I'm craving them. (Laffy Taffy last night). I often crave soda with you, but have decided to start drinking diet coke instead to get my soda FIX. When I used to feel nauseous in the mornings, thinking about Barbecue Ribs would help me to throw up quicker so I wouldn't be so late for work. I'm not sure I'll ever be able to enjoy them again.

For the past month I have washed and folded your things and often walk up to your nursery just to stand in it and imagine an actual BABY in there. That will be so nice. I have set up your carseat in my backseat and it makes me feel super awesome having it back there.

I hope you let me snuggle and hold you lots because i sure plan on it. I hope you like Johnsons Baby Powder, because i really love the smell of it ..and would like for you to smell like it :). I hope you like the lullaby's I plan on playing to you to sooth you to sleep. I hope you can tolerate the dogs sniffing and licking you, they are a really big pain.

Thanks for being an overall GOOD baby on the inside. I was never very ill and I'm grateful for that! Thank you for picking me and Dusty to be your parents, we'll try really hard to raise you right. Thank you for being aware of my extreme lack of patience and being really Big so that you can come 2 weeks early...thanks alot for that..i Really appreciate it :)

p.s. Click to enlarge the items on the bulletin board. My Grandma gave me some totally rad vintage pictures of her and that baby announcement was from my DAD. So cool, right?