Sometimes I need to Vent.

I'm tired. Like really really tired... of my lack of will power. By no means do I think I am an overweight person or anything. BUT this is my blog and i choose today to write about whats on my mind.... I do not eat healthy. And i swear to you i have the slowest metabolism possible. I'm sure of it. I'm tired of justifying eating that candy bar at lunch time because "Heck.. u Know u'll run after work and burn it off." Only to skip running and feel the GUILT of that candy bar sitting on my love handles all the live long day. What is the trick? I want to know what the trick is to having really strong will power and eating right ALONG with exercising. I really do love to exercise, really! But eating right? Puh-LEASE. I think the word "diet" may have been invented by Satan himself... just a thought, though. Curse you Hershey's Cookies and Cream chocolate bar. CURSE YOU!

The Office

I am HOOKED.

The Decision Was Made

After Dusty found a great deal on a MONDO dog kennel on Ebay.... we headed to Target, and purchased the bedding I'd so longed for and dreamed about!

Along with the throw pillow I'd drooled over!!

This is a lamp I found at a thrift store with Mandi the other day... I quite like it

The little star on the bottom Mandi painted and Antiqued for me and I really like it

(ditto with this star)... I sure love this shelf LOTS

Mandi also turned this rather unflattering brass picture frame into a really cute antiquey chalk board for the kitchen! Lovely!!

Also this past week.....

This was Gussy the day I brought him home from the Vet. Would you look at that pitiful sleepy eyed Baby!? I sure love him lots. So much in fact, that I often ask Dusty.. "I wonder if one day when we have children, if I'll love them as much as Gus." and I mean it.

This strange self portrait (yikes) is showing off my cool new earrings i ordered on Etsy. I got some bigger ones in black and cream as well. They are very "a la nienie" i think

These lovelies were also on sale online.. so Dusty let me order some. i really needed a new pair of running shoes.. Yay! I basically made out like a bandit this past week

The other evening at YW we had a Slumber Party (not for real but just for the activity) and we did Hair and nails and so on. I snagged Karalee to do my hair since, DUH, she is the BEST...

Please don't pay attention to the really bizarre look on my face. I had to get a picture of the hair-do though. I even won Best Hair award ;) ;)

And E's little girl was sooo cute while I was trying to learn camera wisdom from Jessica.

Double Wishes

I'm always late to blog with wishing someone a happy birthday or FATHERS DAY. (Sorry dad... for both)

The 14th was my Dad's birthday. and Today is my sisters birthday! So Happy Birthday Dad and Jessi! i sure LOVE you guys

Some facts about my Dad:

He loves to cook and is my favorite cook EVER

Me and my dad have the SAME ears. One is folded and one is floppy.. crazy!

Me and my dad go to the Jack Daniels BBQ every year together

My dad is a redhead.

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Some things that remind me of my sister:

Sour Cream and Onion Chips(aka mermaid food)

New Kids on the Block

Hamsters :]

the song "Shoop" by Salt n' Peppa!

"Fish-o-Lay's" at McDonalds

Old Nickelodeon

Frivolous vs. Cheapy

When I got married, i really had to LEARN what "saving" meant. All through high school I didn't really save for anything besides that new shirt I wanted at American Eagle.. or any other frivolous thing I wished for. I just bought whatever i wanted all the time. When I got married my spending life got turned around and i didn't really like this evil thing called "saving". I've learned ALOT in the past (almost) 2 years and I've come a long way! But I was going to share a quick weird random thing about me. Even at the very beginning of our marriage, one thing that I am SO. ABSOLUTELY. CHEAP. and thrifty with is LAUNDRY DETERGENT. I can NOT explain it! When I do a load of laundry I'm thinking..... "Do i REALLY want to use my good detergent on this load? Is there anything that someone will smell on me in there?" So i whip out my giant box of cheap powder stuff and use it. What is my problem? Out of all the things to be cheap with and try to SAVE ... Laundry Detergent??? Who knows. But Tide Total Care? It's the bomb.

my BABY

Is in the Doggie Hospital having some surgery today. i'll miss him tonight :(

Today

I am really wanting these shoes..

And i can't stop listening to this song by Regina Spektor.. she is great.

I Concur

So I like to read cJane. I was reading through some of her archives (am i a blog stalker or what)... and i really liked this part....

"My latest theory is this: We never progress socially past eighteen (I might be willing to debate that specific age). So socially we stay eighteen and life hands us masks as we advance in age. Here is your college student mask, your college grad mask, your newlywed mask, your parent mask, your bishopric mask, your getting the idea mask. At the end of the day we take off our masks and voila! there is the eighteen year old wondering if she looked good in the pants that she wore to Enrichment Night. Or if she should be offended that her spouse didn't say anything about the chicken enchiladas.Do we ever get comfortable with parental advice? Do we ever feel completely self-assured? Do we ever stop loving that Smashing Pumpkins song? Won't we always feel awkward when talking to someone attractive?"

I really liked it for some reason, probably because I feel the same exact way.

Also what is with this evil thing called "low self-esteem"? Aren't you only supposed to have that as a middle schooler or something? Man. Some days, I'll wake up in the morning and just OOZE low self-esteem. "Dusty, do I have a big butt?... I do!??!!!??... oh... But look when I stand like this... Do you think I look like a boy? ..no?... Good!.....UGH i have NOTHING to wear that is flattering on me!!! THATS IT! I AM NEVER EATING AGAIN." The next day I could wake up and be totally happy with myself. It's an ugly, vicious cycle.

So i was thinking...

So today I cashed some old birthday checks that I hadn't gotten around to. Let me tell you what, it feels like CHRISTMAS (....or my birthday again...?). All day i've been contemplating "What in the heck am I going to spend this morsel of free money on?!" My mind's first answer is always.. "DUH. Go to Anthropologie and SPLURGE big time." But then again.. I do have enough clothes as of right now (I'll regret posting that sentence for my husband to see.) SO then my mind wonders to the fact that we desperately(in my opinion) need new bedding. I've looked all over for THE bedding to top all beddings but always came up short. UNTIL! I went to Target (of COURSE i should have gone there sooner..) I found THE ONE. Its white.. and fluffy.. and has some ruffles and the matching sheets are positively divine. Flowery and vintage looking. They have a cute little throw blanket thats UBER soft and the best part, its in my favorite shade of seafoam green. But then I think.. well, our dogs sometimes sleep in the bed. which means HAIR. and one of our dogs is BLACK. WHICH THEN LEADS ME TO.. the fact that we NEED a bigger Dog Kennel for the dogs to sleep in at night. UGH decisions decisions. Oh and that isn't all. As i've previously mentioned... I am dying to have a small patio table for me and the husband to eat our summer meals outside, sounds lovely, no? SO what shall it be...
1 The Anthropologie SPLURGE
2 The Bedding (plus accessories of COURSE)
3 The Dog Kennel (would rather not but we need it.... unfortunately..)
4 The Patio table and Chairs!?

I can't decide.

And in actuality, I still can't really afford any one of these things... ah darn it.

Medusa visited my house last night...

Dusty is currently enduring a 24 hour EEG test. It isn't hard... he's just got a bunch of wires sticking out of his head, and he has to wear a vest thing (and a fanny pack but don't tell him i told you)....


That looks like it might be painful to rip off of him later today.

I'm sure the sleep he got last night was some of the most peaceful ever.. not.

A Conversation...

..That made me happy:


Me: Why are your swimming trunks on the table?

Dusty: Because i got them out just in case I went swimming at my parents house.

Me: You've got the LIFE, Dust.

Dusty: Yeah right, More like Boring life.

Me: I'd do anything to trade with you...

Dusty: Well, someday.. you will.

:)

Marseilles Dress SHABBY APPLE GUEST GIVEAWAY!!!!

Marseilles Dress SHABBY APPLE GUEST GIVEAWAY!!!!

My Sweetie is 24

Dusty has had this SAME cake every year for his birthday :)

I shall list reasons why I love my Dusty.. because it is his birthday

1. Me and Dusty love the same music

2. Dusty really loves his family

3. He is a very hard worker

4. He lets me take random pictures of us when he's just trying to look at his Jeep Forums

5. Dusty comes on walks with me when i need the exercise

6. Since we've been married, Dusty has tried new foods and has learned to love Asparagus

7. Dusty has the meanest toughest Jeep on the road.

8. Dusty knows to warn me if he is feeling pukey. (thank GOODNESS for that.)

9. Dusty always knows when I am sad.. and always makes me feel better and lets me cry it out. I'm a huge cry baby.

10. Dusty has watched every episode of Desperate Housewives with me since we started dating. Thats a real man ;)

11. Sometimes, I'll hear Dusty say to the dogs "Gimme a kiss!" and I like it. but don't tell him I told you that!

12. Dustys tells me I have really nice teeth :)

13. Although at times i hate it, Dusty really helps me to stay on track with eating healthy. Even if i do really want to just eat that chocolate brownie...i appreciate the motivation (sometimes) haha

14. The previously mentioned mystery hat.... yeah, dusty FOUND IT!

15. I never thought in my life that i'd be so comfortable around a BOY... but now i can't imagine myself being more open or silly with anyone in the entire world.

16. Sometimes I will ask Dusty to pick out my clothes, and i love seeing what he picks out for me :)

17. Honestly, Dusty is the best kisser. Ever.

20. I love when Dusty has cooked Dinner for me when I come home from work

21. he is my Best friend.

I'd go to 24.... but i'd just be rambling because bottom line.. I LOVE DUSTY. What else is there to say???

Happy Birthday, my sweet ;) I Love You.

Mystery Diagnosis

As some of you may know, The Hubs has been kinda ill. It all started last year. Remember my "TRIP TO THE ER" post? Where he had some serious stomach problems and threw up everything he ate? Yeah, the doctors never found out what was wrong, and he got better. Then he started to get some pretty extreme weakness and fatigue. Heavy feeling limbs, and had to be put on light duty at work due to it. Even the smallest of things would wear him out. Again, all the doctors couldn't find what was wrong... and he got better. Come last month and he started to feel the weakness creeping on him again. We went to our wards YW date night and came home and that night there was a Nascar race on (i loathe Nascar) so i laid in the bed while he stayed on the couch and watched the race. At about 1am I woke up very suddenly and realized Dusty wasn't in bed and felt weird and wrong. And at that exact moment Dusty comes into the bedroom, very upset, telling me he'd just had a seizure and woke up on the floor. How very scary!! Another trip to the ER..where of course..the Doctors find nothing wrong. We head home and go to sleep. The next night, Dusty is afraid to go to sleep because the first seizure happened while he was dozing off late at night. So he makes the mistake of trying to stay awake on the couch. He goes upstairs to use the bathroom and says he doesn't remember anything but waking up on the floor upstairs with the same signs that he'd had another seizure. More doctors visits.. medicine.. staying home from work.. the anxiety.. a trip to Vanderbilt.....Nothing has been found and it is surely frustrating. I swear Dusty is going to be on that Discovery Health show Mystery Diagnosis. Say a prayer for him?

On a happier note... I came home from work the other day, where Dusty was cooking fajitas for dinner. Yum. The special part, was that he'd bought and chopped up a pepper and onion for me. he HATES peppers and onions :) Then to make it even better.. he did the dishes after we ate, I absolutely HAD to take a picture. Its such a rare site ;)

Vintage Earrings Tutorial and GIVEAWAY!!!!

Vintage Earrings Tutorial and GIVEAWAY!!!!

The Mysterious Brown Hat

This is such a MYSTERY. For Christmas last year, Dusty got me this really cute brown hat from that Mountain High store at bridgestreet. I love it and wore it often to work out or on Saturdays when my hair was ugly. Its a darn cute hat!! Out of NOWHERE... my hat went missing. We looked and looked and looked and i just gave up and wore a different hat when I went running. Well, the other day as I was going into my closet to look for my 'Special Shoebox of Memories' for YW ..in the depths of my closet, THERE WAS THE HAT!!!!! I ran out gasping and making a nice big dramatic scene for dusty because I FOUND THE HAT!!!!! This was 2 nights ago that I found it. Come the next evening when we were about to go for a walk, i excitedly started to look for the Hat wherever i'd put it to wear it. But guess what. It's MISSING again. We have looked high and low... tore apart the couch, the bed, the closet... WHY AM I NOT SUPPOSED TO HAVE THIS HAT!?!!!? Come back to me, brown hat! I miss you!

Help Me!

So i sure do love my Nikon. But i think i am absolutely CLUELESS on what I am doing with it.The only setting i ever leave it on is the little broken looking arrow with a circle and cross through it. It takes the best pics to me. I'd love to know all the settings.. whats best.. how to not get so much 'noise' in my pictures... and i got LOTS of blurry pics. How can i get my pics really SHARP. I need ADVICE man. Or anyone who would like to show me how its done sometime? Holy cow that'd be the bomb. Oh and PS..i don't have photoshop :\. I just use Picnik.com

heres some baby griff pictures... hes my best subject

And Lastly, just me and the hubs being silly.....

yes.. Dusty is in the middle of a rather extreme sort of burp on the 2nd pictures. *sigh* he's so dreamy, ain't he?