What is my Prob.

Today i read through all my old posts when I was pregnant and when Deacon was first born and it was like I was reading somebody else's blog! It's weird... thinking i HAD A BABY once. It's really strange actually how much I've forgotten. It's like, i KNOW i was pregnant and had a baby, DUH. But i hardly remember what it felt like. When i see other people being pregnant and having babies i think "aw gosh whats that like?" haha. Deacon will turn two this upcoming week. Gulp. And as bad as I want to say "I can't believe he is 2 already" I feel kind of like... Well yeah he is 2.. hasn't he always been this age?? haha. what is wrong with me!? :) The other day I planted some fresh yellow and orange marigolds and got a pretty new topiary for my porch. Everytime I pull in my driveway I want to pretend I'm a guest seeing it for the first time thinking "Oh, how lovely!". Again, What is my problem? :) Have i said yet how much I love this neighborhood we are in? It is great. We have AMAZING neighbors. The lady next door knocked on my door the other morning, and came in for a chat and I didn't even have the house clean OR have a bra on. And i LET HER IN. And enjoyed her visit. WHO AM I!? I digress....Deacon is being an angel of all angels lately. Going to bed with NO tears. Telling strangers (or the car shopping cart) 'BYYYYYEEEE' and telling me and Buzz "Nye-nye" before bed. He is constantly saying new words that I didn't even try to make him say and I just burst with pride for this kid. I say this too much, but i always mean it.. HOW on earth did I ever get so gosh darn lucky.